Feeling let down and fearful, but still growing
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I’ve been feeling a bit out of my element lately and didn’t have the energy to post anything creative. To be upfront about it, I’ve been sad and feeling slightly defeated.
I’ve been battling a few health issues for the past 10 years or so, sciatica, knee issues, back pain, migraine headaches, eye trouble and what I thought might have been a hernia. I treated all of it like a minor annoyance, went to the doctor, took my medicine did my therapy and shrugged it off as symptoms of aging. I’ll admit to not caring all too much about my health until recently and as crappy as that sounds, this same sentiment is shared by more people than you think. Why else would we fall out of shape, gain weight or even smoke cigarettes?
I started my quest for physical fitness on the Monday after the 4th of July weekend. Since that time I’ve amazed myself with my little achievements and started feeling pretty good. (I asked Christa if it was okay to be amazed at myself, she said yes but I still have my doubts) It was during one of my runs to the YMCA for strength training that I felt pain while lifting weights and doing crunches were out of the question. So I admitted to myself that I day that I should probably go to the doctor again and check out this possible hernia.
I admit to feeling let down and fearful that I would need surgery, slightly depressed that I would have to stop training and scared that I wouldn’t be ready for the marathon in January. But it was better to get it checked out now rather than later and my training was only making it worse. My doctors visit confirmed my fears, I had a hernia and needed immediate surgery before it became an emmergency. I didn’t even hesitate, I made an appointment for as soon as I could and had my surgery this past Friday, the 2nd.
The doctor said my surgery went very well and for the past week I’ve been confined to the couch in recovery. I can walk, get up on my own and am doing very well now. During this next week I hope to be out of pain completely and able to get back into the swing of things.
It wasn’t until my surgery that I realized how important it is that I continue to do what I am doing. I miss my runs a great deal and I’m eager to get back to my training plan. I’m also excited that I will be out of pain and at 100%. So today I admit to all my readers that yes I’m stubborn but glad that we all still have the ability to continue to grow and mature even in our 40’s and beyond, I’m proof of that and it’s one of the many truly amazing aspects of life. It’s never too late for you to quit smoking, change the way you eat and start exercising with me. What are you waiting for?
